Long lost FREEdom…

Remember my journey to FREEdom?? I barely do! Seems like since the moment we found out we were moving it kind of flew out the window- at a time when I am desperate for it the most! So much for my “schedule“! Haha!

Well I’ve been struggling with it lately for sure. During a time that has been such a MAJOR God-calling in our lives, Satan has attacked us in many tiny ways that have accumulated to just create enough stress to make me crazy. I praise God that nothing major has happened but lately it seems that every little thing that could go wrong will. Aside from the one bigger thing of our home not selling yet, there are just the daily things like both cell phones breaking, foot pain from plantar faciitis, ants all over the house, temper tantrums from a 3 year old, the clingy-ness of a 1 year old, people not returning my important calls, wasting gas driving somewhere far only to have my son have an accident and Mommy forget to bring a change of clothes, and coupons for free dinners not being accepted. All things that just seem stupid and menial if they happened on occasion. But when all of those things and more happen all in one week it can make you lose your focus (Satan’s plan).

But tonight after another long and frustrating day I had a minor breakthrough. I was making a list of everything I need to get accomplished this week and slowly my pen trailed off the paper as I realized some of these things do not NEED to get done. They are things that if I had time to handle I would, but they are by no means  NECESSARY! The thing that really made me realize this was the last on my list of traumatic moments (at least I thought so at the time!!). A few days ago I had 4 coupons for free dinners at a fast food restaurant (for healthy meals mind you) that was doing a special promotion. This lovely institution shall remain nameless. We had our evening all planned to go out as a family for a fun dinner that we could not otherwise afford right now. Told Jace, he got all excited, went inside to order only to be told that not only are they not accepting the coupons anymore (PRIOR TO THE EXPIRATION DATE) but that they were no longer issuing rain checks either. You had to go online to do so. Left the restaurant with a crying 3 year old. Mommy=not happy since it was then past dinner time with no dinner ready at home and an upset child. So today I woke up with a mission to get these rain checks online. Went to the site. Not there. Figured I’d call after the kids were in bed and let them know what I thought about that and how they’d traumatized my son (hey- I was going for the effect!). So just now I put Elle to bed (Jace is with Daddy at a HS event) and the thought came to me- why? Why am I making this a priority? Are the 4 free meals REALLY worth it at this point? Why am I just making more work for myself? Now at this point I’m realizing that in the time it’s taken me to write this post I could have possibly spoken to someone and gotten my coupons in the mail to me but that’s beside the point! This realization that I oftentimes make more work for myself is more important than chicken (… oops- have I let the cat out of the bag?? Haha!).  How FREEing it is to just say- w h a t e v e r! I’m done making more work for myself. I’m done letting Satan get that foothold. And just like that I can cross something off of my list!!